I kept up a bit of normality while visiting Jo in the hospital but since I just cried all the way to the city and keep bursting into tears in elevators and bathrooms, that normality might have been something of a facade. It's so painful to think about her situation and her pain. I want to stop random strangers around me and explain it all to them and cry on their shoulders.
I turned in some almost-final thesis revisions and now next Wed. is the final target date.
I don't konw whether to look for something fun to do tonight, or try to buckle down and work some more to alleviate the pressure, or go home and curl up in bed and cry a while more. I also need to go to the pharmacy. How many of these activities can I cram into the next 10 hours of my life?
Meanwhile, Rook and Moomin are having a great time in the mountains with the family, and Chula is off at the literary awards event tonight in New York.
Hmmm, what to do with myself?
I kind of wish I were already up in the mountains... maybe I'll leave early... but no, I should work in peace and quiet tomorrow.
I think I'm pms-ing.
You are a great friend to Jo! It is so hard to watch a loved one go through something as she is. She is lucky to have you in her life. Remember to take care of yourself too. I am sure this is very painful for you. Jo is blessed with a great friend in her life, you.
Posted by: Melissa | May 11, 2006 at 09:29 PM
Oh honey. Thank you for the fish tacos, which were brought with love, I could tell. Thank you for crying for me, too. It was painful and difficult but also the right place to be. Soon it will pass, I hope, even though the times ahead are sure to be quite rocky. I am learning to cope.
Posted by: Jo | May 15, 2006 at 09:13 PM