resolution

A mid-year resolution: to do what my mom asked and send more photos of Moomin and his schoolwork to her relatives. I hate this, but it gives her face in some important way. I hate supporting any illusion that I am part of their family. though I was willing to go be supportive in my grandma's health crisis.

I don't really know _what_ I think or feel about this, actually.

But I find any contact at all with them, even an xmas card, to be painful.