not only cripple, but idiotI

not only cripple, but idiot

I am an idiot... I just now realized that it's not the crutching to class from the parking garage that's going to be difficult, it's pushing the gas pedal and brake as it's my right foot.

Duh!

I just always want to think I can cope with everything. Goddamn it. I refuse to miss class.

Probably I CAN do it, that is the problem, but then I will cripple myself further, pointlessly. Then I will be lying in bed for days totally fucking helpless. Will ask for help right now.It is humiliating. Already used up quota of asking for help last night and this morning by making J. get things for me.