The big whine
Getting ready to go to NYC, unwillingly. To some people this would be a fun adventure.
Would Badger from Wind in the Willows go to New York in the dead of winter? Hell no - he would hole up in his den with a lot of books and some hot chocolate.
My asthma is so bad this week I dug out my old Medical Alert bracelet and put it on. I have this sick vision of choking on my own phlegm in the parking lot of Safeway while worried yuppies edge around me, figuring I'm a dying crack whore. (Like a bracelet will help???)
The backpack I was going to take on the plane - I cleaned it out.
Escuche y repita: DO NOT ever put a banana in your backpack.
Under all my stuff int he backpack at the very bottom was a totally black banana. As soon as I touched it, it burst, covering my fingers and all my stuff with deliquescent former banana. It did not mix well with the crushed M & Ms and tattered bits of kleenex and cracker crumbs down there. Thank god I bothered to clean it out instead of just taking it on the plane.
With all the "disaster training" stuff going on : My paranoia kicked in and I went and read all these disgusting web sites about smallpox and anthrax and botulism and chemical warfare (mostly from the CDC). Ugh! Why did I look at all those gross pictures of smallpoxed skin??? Why do I do it? My imagination is already bad enough without fuel.
Last night read Their Eyes Were Watching God. I did notice that the heroine gets to a) have sex with various men b) run off from marriages she doesn't like c) doesn't ever get raped or killed, though beated a little bit . Not bad for 1937. I kept bracing myself for the inevitable rape. But it didn't happen! Good job Zora Neale.
Speaking of rape... I have been deadly fascinated with the Catholic priests scandals. It confirms all my paranoia and conspiracy theories. The diosceses (dioscesi??? whatever) actually set up "victim's rights" and therapy groups, but didn't reveal that they were run by lawyers who would not only persuade the accusers/victims to not take legal action, but would report on the accusations to the church officials! Imagine going to a therapy group and secretly, your "therapist" was a lawyer hired by your rapist! Fuck.
JHK and I arguing about whether, if the priests didn't have to be celibate, this would still happen so much. Maybe a little bit less but if they're in a position of authority but no accountability, yeah it will happen quite a lot, whether they're allowed to fuck women their own age or not. JHK says no.
I also read in the NYTimes that in the Catholic Church molesting some little boy is not a violation of a priest's vow of chastity. it's a sin, but it's not as bad of a sin as fucking a consenting woman would be.
Grrr.
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