My leg hurts, I'm a little down, I'm going to bed early again. "Blue Moon Rising" was funny at first but isn't sustaining my interest past the first half of the book. Unicorn, prince, princess, dragon, magic sword, hack slash intrigue-yet-obvious, demon prince.
I did too much today, but it felt like I didn't do enough.
I feel like I can't blog half of what I'm thinking and it's very limiting. How can I sustain that?
Also what is with people who do malicious gossip? I like a little gossip myself. But when you tell people things that just hurt them, with no point and when they don't want to hear it?
I tried to show off too much walking today and am paying for it.
Got to the top of the stairs trying not to use crutches, feeling self concious, trying not to limp, and realized it hurt a lot. Then I thought I would try to go down with just one crutch and carry a glass of wine, which I did for 2 steps and then I couldn't.
Anyway, my leg is aching with pain to the point where it's depressing.
I had a whole plan of going into the BH office and angling for my own key to the bathroom and trying not to use the chair. But maybe not this week. Here is the deal with the bathroom. There is one shared key and it is across the building where the elevator is. So, if I had my own key, I could use the bathroom on the way in and out, and have to walk across the building less times. Without my own key I go in, across to the elevator, across again to the office, then have to go there and back if I need the bathroom. Thus do I calculate my small increments of pride and humiliation. Sometimes it's easier to stay home. I'm thinking too I am not quite ready for going-out-at-night especially without the chair. I will stick to more accessible places if I try.
Meanwhile if you want to help a person in difficulty with some practical help:
Get this person a washer and dryer in their apartment. It is a huge help for a disabled person to be able to do their own laundry. I'll keep donating on the same one until the points fill up. I just did 2 loads of laundry on crutches people. If i had to do stairs and a laundromat, then I'd be dirty, what can I say.
Tomorrow morning I'll make myself a huge pot of coffee and I'll mess about with my translations. That should cheer me up!
Sorry, I have been "out there" whereever that is - I think the washer and dryer is a major point. I feel pretty strongly about affordable wheelchairs (like the dodge of wheelchair the crappy but dependable A4) - because someone having a wheelchair, having AN option, gives them choice and choice about how to function in a life which is full of pain and trying to function is important. I wish there was some way to make a list of the things people could do or contribute to make the life of a person with a disability (I smell stealing your idea and making and ouch! blog).
Sorry about the leg, pain sucks - always sucks, once thought, "Hey if BDSM people can get into it, maybe after like a year or so, I'll start getting eroticized by my pain" but nope, still just....pain.
Posted by: elizabeth | March 14, 2008 at 12:40 PM