So frustrated and tired of this

Screw this... I'm going to try to pretend for the rest of tonight that nothing is wrong and operate accordingly. I'm going to walk on this fucking leg and not use the crutches and try to take reasonably normal steps. If it hurts it hurts. At this point everything hurts so what do I have to lose. I'll keep my stomach muscles straight and I'll avoid bending over and will keep doing the chair-to-standing transfer carefully.

Comments

[Jo]

You need to heal, honey. Be patient! Be good to yourself! Be careful!

[blaize]

Jo is right, please do be careful. Something is not right with your back and you need to accept that until you know what the mri shows & what treatment route will alleviate the pain that you need to take things slow and easy.

[badgerbag]

Yeah but!

*cussing*

I did a couple of hours of work, cooked dinner for Moomin, and then walked carefully around and around the yard and am doing another round of the physical therapy exercises. I'm just going to start seriously alternating lying down and then doing laps of walking with no crutches. Otherwise there is no way to tell if I'm getting better or not. And I think it will help.

Hoping so.

[blaize]

Maybe just be extremely cautious. My partner suffered with something like this for a number of years too and when the results of her mri came back she had severe spinal stenosis and like you, she was extremely frustrated with the numb leg, the back spasms, the nerve pain and the constant uncertainty of when her leg might give out. Eventually she had to see a nureosurgeon who did the surgery. That experience is why I caution you to be very careful and take it easy until you know exactly what the mri shows. Make damn sure you have a competent specialist look at it too and don't get fobbed off.