I'm irritable, frustrated, and feeling scared of this injection. The doctor did talk like I would leap up and be healed. Online sources, reputable ones, seem less convinced, and warn that there will be a few days of increased pain before the steroids kick in for real. I'm scared of the procedure and I'm scared of the aftermath. "Increased pain" can mean anything from achiness to not being able to walk for days more and so I worry I won't be able to sit up or hobble and I might have to take pain meds. That's not really all that scary but it makes my heart sink.
Plus a general freakazoidal feeling from constantly battling the thought of OMG AN INJECTION INTO MY SPINE.
Though the affected joint is in mid-back, the main horrible pain is in my tailbone just to the right. I'm so very tired of this pain. It would be refreshing to hurt somewhere ELSE.
Meanwhile, grading in-class group project on "Hungry for a Month" and really enjoying it.
Today's class rocked! I was so happy and proud of my students. We hit a groove today. Tons of people talked in class. I felt they approached the complicated exercise with confidence. My working at giving them very clear instructions paid off too. The subject was interesting to them. They seemed to "get it" and in their groups wrote busily and with purpose.
I sat there correcting their revised "Works Cited" pages and thinking that every time they have done very well, it's when I've taught well. Every time they've seemed confused and unable to do an assignment, it's because I haven't taught well. I have hit upon "the groove" at times only because of flexibility and experimentation and listening to them. To the teachers who feel bitter and that their students suck, I would say not that the teacher sucks but that they haven't figured out the way to teach those students yet and they should experiment with many techniques.
No matter what grades they end up with I have a strong feeling of trust that they learned some useful things. The guy who writes confused blather still does, but it's more organized confused blather and rather than failing he will make a C+ on the exam. I think we'll practice this same exercise with different source material two more times. With this magic technique at their fingertips, they'll be ready for English 1B.