The pain from (sciatica or peripheral neuropathy or whatever) is already nasty and it's not even 10am. I'm going to work hard now while I still have the mental energy. At noon I'll shop for Moomin's party at 2 stores down the street from work. Then I'll work some more but I'm afraid I won't be at peak mental capacity because of the pain in my leg, foot, and back. Maybe it'll get better, not worse, over the course of the day? I'm limping, and being careful how I move, and have good back support in my chair and my feet on the floor (with the option to lie on a couch if I need it.) $deity (as whump would say) please let the pain not be nasty or help me have patience and not be cranky tonight for Moomin's birthday. I used to live with this pain and worse every day and I learned how to deal with it... and promptly forgot when I didn't need to deal with it anymore.
It is also scary because if my right leg is like this and my left knee also goes out, as it's prone to do, then I'm limping on both legs, which doesn't work very well, as you can imagine. Also, when my right leg gets like this, it also has been known to buckle without warning and I fall over. I like to think of it as "gracefully sinking to the pavement". My fold up cane is in my trunk... 3 blocks away... and right now it should maybe be in my backpack. But maybe that is the paranoia about disability talking and is not realistic. I can't tell, honestly! Probably just a couple of days of "ow, my back is twingey" and it will blow over completely (as it has ever since 2001-ish). But you see how I can't help worrying.
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Missed you this morning, cause I was late.
Since you have a permanent job, why don't you keep another fold-up cane, or even a regular one, in your office?
Better than sinking to the floor.
Does massage help? I know a gifted masseuse -- my sister JS.
Posted by: Liz Ditz | March 22, 2007 at 12:23 PM
Missed you this morning too. I hope you feel better soon!
Posted by: Jo | March 22, 2007 at 05:14 PM
Of course I see how you can't help worrying. Can I do some of your worrying for you?
Posted by: Debbie | March 23, 2007 at 03:50 PM
8-) Thanks guys. I think it's getting better. It still hurts but I'm less panicked.
Posted by: badgerbag | March 23, 2007 at 10:40 PM
Sciatica is an absolute bummer! Sometimes feels like it takes over your life!
Posted by: Ruben | August 23, 2009 at 04:22 PM