I had a nice day lying around and pottering but I can't even begin to express my bitterness that I have not been able to do the things I want to be doing. I am missing tagcamp, not working on my thesis, not ready for my conference, translations I wanted to read are unfinished, poems that are rocketing around in my head are unwritten. Stuff is happening all around and I am not part of it. I am coming unhinged. I keep thinking maybe today will be different and then it isn't. Monday I will be having gross endoscopy and will feel like crap. Tues. I hope I will recover from that and I still have the vague dream that I might get my translation of Perlongher together somehow (tomorrow??) AND finish composite #2 which I guess should be the priority. Since I can read some other perlongher or some of my other translation at the conference. Which suddenly feels like a huge waste of time and money anyway. and all the joy is sucked out of getting to gallivant around montreal if I can't even gallivant properly but instead will be shuffling around drearily and collapsing into armchairs trying not to look ill.
Meanwhile, half of me is still convinced that by sheer effort of will I could feel better if only I would cheer up.
You were thinking of attending TagCamp? Dang! I was surprised enough to see Bill there -- I'd have fainted if I'd run into you...
So sorry you're feeling bad. I didn't try to schedule meetings with any of my Bay Area e-pals because I knew I'd be short on time. I may or may not be able to connect after the TagCamp wrapup. If not, then next time, okay?
Posted by: Prentiss Riddle | October 29, 2005 at 06:10 PM
Goddamnit! I could have been showing Prentiss Riddle my underwear at this VERY SECOND. Instead I am this useless parasite on society, accomplishing nothing!
8-)
Posted by: badgerbag | October 29, 2005 at 06:26 PM